Monday, May 31, 2004
Life is not a bed of roses… How true…
This semester that had just passed me by marked a big change from the pleasant memories of the first semester, having experienced my fair share of disappointments and setbacks.
Failure always leaves a bad taste in one’s mouth…
Today we got back the results for the examinations… I had just only logged on to the computer when I was greeted by YingWai’s ICQ message announcing that the results are out and that we can assess our grades… That few minutes of waiting time taken to log on to student link was really painful… wanting to know, yet not wanting to know…
AABC sank in…… I got a C for AB103 Statistics and a B for AA101 Accounting…
I was a bit disappointed with Accounting, having taken it before in Junior College but had more or less expected the B because of the format of the paper, but I did not really expect a C for statistics because of the coursework. Well I think I should be applying for a review for my statistics grading, but I am not optimistic that it will change anything.
Then there was also the disappointment of being overlooked for the post of wakeboarding club’s president, the disappointment of not having a class as fun as the previous semester and other less trivial ones that I cannot recall for now…
But then again, one has to move on… one cannot allow oneself to wallow in sorrow or disappointment for it offers one no benefit. We often feel that we are the only ones that are faced by problems; that the whole world is against us, that nothing is fair. But is it true?
Hardly… Everyone goes through shit at some point of time in their life. I guess it is just that being humans, we are just too insensitive, or too encapsulated in our own problems that we don’t realize that others are going through their own problems too.
Life goes on… No one will pity or sympathize with you if you do not move on… Everyone got their own problems and their own dues to pay.
Like they say… It is not wrong to make a mistake but it would be wrong to repeat the same mistake. I guess mistakes are worth making if you can reflect upon them to learn where you have gone wrong, so as to avoid making mistakes of similar nature, and what you ought to do given a similar situation again…
Now I will just have to decide over the next few days if I should pursue another minor in communication studies or if I should focus my efforts on the core subjects… and if I should stick to my choice in Banking and Finance or to venture in to marketing where it will be relatively easier to score since I am better with such subjects.
JIONG TING ♥
Monday, May 31, 2004
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Monday, May 24, 2004
It's been a few days since i have logged on any entries.. and those few days has been more or less trying to finish up the last project for EN103.
Friday marked the end of our 2 weeks of the entrepreneurship programme with a 2 hour paper. Hall C sure is not a good place to have examinations at.. It was initially too hot with the aircon refusing to work and go on strike, and later it turn too cold..
brr...
We went to Marche to celebrate the end of the course after the 2 hour paper, and boy was it a night to remember. : ) We had fun unvieling our angels and presenting gifts to our mortals and haha.. i was right.. Michele was my angel. haha and she got me a hatchet shaped earing. Winnie, Kongseng and some of the class went for KTV after the meal while I joined Kelvin, Biyu, Edwin and the rest for coffee at Spinellis.
Yesterday was a bad day for me.. my phone's number pad died on me and according to the lady at Nokia service centre over at Jurong, some cable fizzed out~~ and it would cost me 50 odd dollars to get it fixed.. sianz.. If i had traded in the phone earlier..
Well one more day to go before i shall embarked on the KL trip, and only 5 more days or so to results....
JIONG TING ♥
Monday, May 24, 2004
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Thursday, May 20, 2004
Today we finally handed in the first of our two projects, and can you believe that our final report actually came up to 80+ pages with 1.5 spacing...
Last night was really madness personified.. i was at the computer from 7pm after shopping for some candies and chocolates for my angel and mortal and sat all the way through till 1am for 6 hours straight with only like 10-20 minutes away for dinner.
But the satisfaction from finishing the report was indeed worth the effort and time put in. Well now, we only have that one more 12 page group report and tomorrow's 2 hour paper to finish before we get our well deserved break.
Hmm really look forward to enjoy tomorrow's dinner at Marche after a long tideous week and knowing who my angel is. haha haven't really thought about who she could be although i did guessed Michele though i don't think it is her.
Well i think this two weeks of the minor classes has brought us all much closer to one another because of the time spent together, particulary for this week's module and i do hope we will all remain in touch for the coming semester. Think i should talk to Winnie about what we can do or organise for the class.
The skits today on Gilette by both Kelvin and Joseph's group were highly entertaining, particulary Kelvin's role which was quite daring and required him to put on a huge earing and bare some skin. Joseph's group as a whole came out better and being more engaging.
Well for now, i think i should just flip through the notes for this module and perhaps get some zzzz.. afterall the paper is not until 2pm and i won't be meeting qianyi they all till 1pm in canteen B. Till then...
JIONG TING ♥
Thursday, May 20, 2004
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Monday, May 17, 2004
Monday 16th May 11.45pm
I blew my top during discussion today and gave Yong Ching a piece of my mind… I really loose my cool over his behavior but then again, tell me someone in the group who is not mad at him.
We told him specifically over the last meeting on Friday what he was required to do so as to avoid confusion of duties and responsibilities, and his blaming of us for not involving him, not listening to what he has to say...We even took pain taking turns to draw out the organizational structure in which he was to based his part on.. but in the end his was anything but what we were looking for. It was only with Qianyi's help i was able to covered his part last night.
We did not even want to make a fuss over his part because we were all aware that time wasn't on our side, with a skit due the very next day, two projects at the end of the week and a 3 hr paper on friday.. but he wouldn't let issues rest and there we were trying to move on with our work and pacify him until i exploded..
On hindsight perhaps i really should have gotten more of a grip on myself, what is the point of directing my anger when it won't help resolve issues.
I always had been an impulsive person, tending to act sometimes without taking into consideration of other people's feeling only to feel guilty after the whole episode, and today the side of me surfaced... haha well i just hope i will be able to better manage such conflicts in the future better...
Other than that incident, the day went on quite normally just that the pace was much faster than last week but it wasn't till 6 plus before our group was able to finished up discussing for the skit.
JIONG TING ♥
Monday, May 17, 2004
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Sunday, May 16, 2004
Sunday 16th May 11.57pm
Things were pretty slow paced today, didn't do alot except going for a swim and a tan, finishing up some of the minor project and some chit-chatting.
The sun was good today, and i did get the tan i wanted after 3 hours spent at the pool, oh and i finally remembered to get some candy for my mortal. Think it was pretty bad of me not to have left my mortal any note or stuff on friday, but then again neither did my angel left anything for me. haha
Tomorrow would mark the start of the new minor module, and boy after that would really be the holidays for me, but first to get though this week. Getting past this week probably won't be that hard if not for the formal exam on friday. Can anyone imagine doing a 2 hour paper 2 weeks after an exam?
KL trip has been more or less finalised with Layhoon and Cheewee confirmed for the trip. Sure will look forward to it man, but haha but after that must really find a job liao or i don't see any way of surviving this holidays without exhausting my savings.
I still do want to be able to shop and do some other short travelling if possible.
Results would be out in about 2 weeks and when that dreadful day comes, i would then have to make a decision about my choice of major, one that would have implications of career choice and opportunities. I probably would choose Banking and Finance like i have always said i would, but somehow still have mixed feelings about not doing marketing. Marketing seems so interesting and dynamic a course but then again one would have to weigh the career prospects and opportunites. I am not putting down marketing in any sense or i wouldn't even be considering it in the first place.
I guess i would probably make banking and finance my choice and take up those modules from marketing i find interesting in the end... Why don't NTU/NBS consider what SMU is doing by making possible for one to contemplate a double major, or even a double degree. No doubt it would be more siong, but at least it presents us a choice. But i guess life is all about choices and making decisios, just how hard or easy those decisions are. We make decisions everyday, some insignificant, some having serious repercussions..
Think i shall put those thoughts on hold till results are out, and look at the short term things i need to tie up... starting with writing my mortal a note......
JIONG TING ♥
Sunday, May 16, 2004
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Sunday 16th May 2.45am
Saturday has passed me by, and i was wrong in assuming Friday was gonna be a short day. though we were officially dismissed at 12.30, my group only left NTC eventually at 5.15, though it was puntucated by a long long lunch break at Jurong Point.
This holidays seems to be the season of heartbreaks and heartaches, but doesn't every holiday seems like that? Or is it that relationships are getting shorter, people getting fickle? Or perhaps people were too rush in getting into the relationship in the very first place? Well.. only the parties themselves know it best, or do they?
What is love? and how do one measure love? or distinct it from infatuation? I was told by a friend that if u feel uneasy when u dun see the person, that feeling is kinda like love? But is it really the case? Love ought to be a two way thingy between two person isn't it? So if one was to feel uneasy about the other person, without reciprocrity of any feeligns from the other party do we still say that it's love? I wouldn't think so but whom am i to say that i am right and they are wrong.
Talking with Cheewee just now(we went to get Rongming's present) set me thinking again; all along i have held my own perspectives on the issue of love and relationships.
I am one who believe that two parties should be together only if they like the person for whom they really are, and not for what they do for the other party during the process of courtship, which doesn't mean i don't believe in doing sweet things for the other party during courship.
But for how long can one assume the identity of someone whom they really aren't? You can be a gentlement during the process of courtship and you can win the girl's heart by doing all the sweet little things and telling her what she wants to hear (perhaps you are feeling otherwise at times), but wouldn't she be falling for this
gentlement instead of whom you really are? How can one expect to maintain a relationship built on pretence and acting? Hmm perhaps that would seem overly critical and harsh but does it really not contain any pinch of truth?
But Cheewee was also right that one got to put in effort, as in not to expect not doing anything and yet expect to win the girl's heart. I agree with him as in it is so hard to seperate the two issues. How to actually do sweet little things for someone whom you may hold feelings for, yet not wanting her to like you for what you do, but for whom you actually are.. but then again if Love was so easy to break down and be explained, wouldn't there be no heartbreaks and heartaches.
Cheewee was right, and i am also aware myself all along that i should perhaps throw thinking aside, and instead just to follow the heart and go into relationships instead of thinking of
what ifs and evaluating all the possible reasons that why a potential relationship do not work out. After all if love can be rationalise, can be explained everyone would have been happily in love...
JIONG TING ♥
Sunday, May 16, 2004
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Thursday, May 13, 2004
13 May 2004, Thursday 10.02pm
Yet another day has passed... now it's just one more day to the end of the first minor module for this holidays and i am not sure whether we have really learnt anything substantial?
Went down for the job interview for communicasia 2004 today with Kelvin during the lunch break, and boy can you believed that over 400 people turned up to fill 27 posts, but then again what else can one expect when the company is paying $120 for a days work?
Not hopeful at all about the prospect of securing the job cos i think i really fumbled the interview and didn't make any impression.
Saw Brenda n Cheewee at the venue of the interview and learnt of the date for our stipulated KL trip, and i do agree with cheewee that going on a wednesday is indeed abit funny, but i guess only then will we meet up with brenda and friend. Now i only hope more people will be free to join us for the trip.
After the interview, it was already 2 plus and it was kinda fast before the class ended for the day. As usual discussion was pretty alright with the occasional dirsuption from Yongching. Well although i guess most of us in the group do feel annoyed at times, i guess most of us also feel pretty bad to have left him out at times. Agreed with qianyi over the phone that we should perhaps give him some task that he can immerse himself in and perhaps will be able to contribute more constructively.
Well at least tomorrow with Mr Teng having to leave at 2, it will be a short day .. i hope
JIONG TING ♥
Thursday, May 13, 2004
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Thursday morning, 1.19 am
Looking back at the day's event, another day has just gone by without much realisation but i guess it beats having so much time and yet nothing to do.
It is contradictory that one should bitch about having too much to do yet bitch again when one have too much time on hand but isn't that what man is all about - contradictories and ironies.
This is only the second week of my holidays and the third day of my minor programme, yet somehow it feels so much more like a school sem with the minor commencing each day at 9 and ending at 5.
This time round doing the makreting project has been rather fun yet tideous at time, it really irks me when the projects cannot get moving when yongching would throw us off track with some of his remarks or unneeded actions but then again can't say he's entirely at fault. After all everyone looks at thingys differently and sometimes some of his points are truly valid but i must say that he is one character that i have never come acrossed and as mean as it may sounds, hopefully not to come across for future projects.
The day ended at 5 for the first time in 3 days (the other two days being released before stipulated timing) and kelvin, me and Winnie were breifed by Qing Xie and Hanwei about the Angel-Mortal game to start later in the day? and a makan session at the end of this two weeks, next friday at Marche.
well i think Qingxie really makes a good leader as in he really is level-headed and considers what must be done for the interest if the class. I mean it is clear to each and everyone in the minor group that cohesiveness and bonding is sorely lacking and everyone sort of only care about themselves and something should have been done long ago (the 1 and half day obs was way too short to build up any real bond)
I do really hope that at the end of this whole course, most of us will forge a stronger relatioship, and that our ideas and visions will really get translated into tangible results, with the management company, the cafe and the bazaar thingys being the immediate concern...
JIONG TING ♥
Thursday, May 13, 2004
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